Ray Hundle My thoughts are with you,your family and all your many friends at this time. I still can't believe it, it seems so sureal. I have many good memories of growing up together in highschool especially of how little and cute you were!!And I could never forget your great sense of humour,you always knew how to make people laugh!! Take care Until we meet again!! Stephanie Newcombe
Ray ill miss you ... We always had good times and ill never forget them, especially my birthday it will be the one i never forget. Your in a better place and i hope to see you there .... I love you and you'll always be in my heart babe !
hey ray...i still cant believe my eyes u r gone...juz at da otha day we chilled at da pool..dat was fun..mac'in up on each otha;)...good tymes man..well now ur in a better place...rip ray..
never forget u. its not gonna be the same as when we used to chill. sit for hours and just laugh. u always made the plans to do something fun like beach and bbq's. u will never be forgotten. ur life changed many, u gave people hope and meaning, gave people a place in life. thats why u will always be in everybodies hearts. i cant wait to join u again. rip my brother
Ray, I still can't believe that you are gone. We grew up together from the kindergarten days, and I imagined you always being around. I know that you are in a better place, and you are enjoying every moment of it. You definitely knew how to live up your life. You brought so much happiness to everyone you have met. You will be missed dearly and you will continue to live on in my heart. See you when I make up there. God rest your beautiful soul.
Let's not focus on how you left, but how you lived while you were here....the many things in life that you can say that you've done, that only most of us could only wish
Ray...my heart goes out to ur family and friends..we all miss and love you dearly...you are an amazing person and always such a happy soul...you always took my lectures deep and understood my crazy ways, never judging on others and always trying to better everything; not just in your life but everyones around you...the life u have lived is full of love and hapiness which is a great example for all of us to follow... just have 'Fun with a Purpose' From Nelson School and Secret Park to Friday nights on MSN and all the crazy places you wandered...all i have in my heart is love for you !!!
Ray, I know we hadn't talked in years and I'm sorry about the way things ended between us, but I wanted you to know what an impact you had on my life. I will never forget all the fun we had together, from hanging out at the beach to our late night conversations on the phone. You were a very special person and a true friend. Always there when I needed you and I will carry our memories in my heart forever. May God be with your friends and family. Love you forever, Fania
I know Ray,when he came into my life 2 years ago. He helped me heal a broken heart just talking about it with me for months, and helped me deal with it was one of the few things he was there for.I'm suprised he even put up with it and still wanted to get to know me.. Sometimes we'd stay up all night until morning just talking about shit. things we did that day,Life in general and what we both thought of it. As i got to know him, sometimes I would think how can there be someone like him and wondered why I couldn't get enough of talkign to him, We did meet a couple times. but didn't chill or anything. We were making plans to do something .. He didn't want to at first cuz, there were reasons only we know about. Towards the end of his life he called me out a couple times. But I always said no... cuz,then i wasn't feeling to good about life. Now that he's gone .. its like reliving a broken heart and losing out on someone special u were just anxious to meet but because i was stubborn i never got the chance.. There was probably a reason why it never happend, God only knows why. One of the things we talked about is if one of us were to go what kind of legacy would u want to leave. He didn't know... But I believe Ray's legacy to me, was Just a Pure heart,that touched everyone in his path. just being yourself, everyone should have,its so easy to get caught up in life,its easy to forget life is for living. Ray was special to me. His life has made me realize alot. I know everyones heart is aching that he's gone, Life is one big journey we are all on. We'll all meet eachother again oneday. so live this life until that day to meet eachother again on the other side.
We will miss you buddy. You were the same guy since we met in Burnaby south in 1995 up untill you past away and that is a great person ,always with a smile on your face and full of life. I didnt get to see you a lot in the past few years but every time we meet at different places around the city we greated eachother just like we use to throught out the years in different highschools. Somehow we ended up in Burnaby Central together after South , I wonder why ? hehehe I will miss you man , you were an awesome guy and I'am proud to have known you for these 11 years. Rest in peace hommie , we love you , we miss you.
I have your picture they gave at the funeral taped on my desk. I can’t help but to look at it every 5 mins and shake my head. I think I’m still in shock that you’re gone. Why did this happen? I guess I’ll never know. Where’s my sex therapist at? Where’s my msn buddy I could talk to all nite? LITERALLY! You were such a great person. So you and Rob liked to share huh? LOL I couldn’t help but laugh. As I was driving to your funeral I had a few things in mind I wanted to say to you. I didn’t even have the guts to go up and see you. I was afraid of breaking down. I know you didn’t like it when I would cry. I wasn’t going to go because I didn’t know how I would take it. But I knew I had to, to get a sense of closure. Thank you for always making me smile. Thank you for always telling me that I was a beautiful girl. You always made me feel good about myself. And you were so blunt!! Loved it! I always wondered why you never got upset about anything. You just shrugged things off! I guess somehow you knew you would live a short life. I love you hunnie. Till the day we meet again.
Ray omg! I can't believe this happened to you! I'm so sorry, I wish I you could come back and bless us all! You will never be forgotten hun. I call your phone thinking I might hear your voice once again, but I know that will never happen. I love you dearly and wish I could have said goodbye! take care up there Ray.
Ray, I cant seem to get over the time I first met you with Johnny. You 2 are priceless, thank you for blessing me with your presence. My condolences go out to all your family and friends. We'll miss you Ray, RIP.
Ray, I never had the chance to tell you how extrodinary you are. How genuine, charming, kind-hearted, daring and admirable you are. You were always living life to the fullest, going out of your way to make people feel good, enjoying life every minute you had and always trying new things. Thank you for always going out of your way to take me out and taking care of me while I was in Vancouver. I regret not being able to see you again-- but then I thought about it, and realized that I was pretty lucky to even have met you, spent time with you and had you in my life. There's so many people that did not get the chance to meet you. And that is when I realized that I was so lucky to have had the memories that I did with you. At this moment I dedicate all my prayers to your family. I don't know if there is life after death, or if there is a heaven. But I do hope, that some how we will meet again. I will always carry your memories in my heart forever. Thank you ray for everything and for showing me how to live life to the fullest.
As we grew up together in highschool you were always the most cutest little guy. We used to laught together, run down to 7-11 & grab slurpees together. Remeber skipping class & going to DONS? I cant believe you are gone. I pray to GOD u find your place GOD wants you to be. We will never forget you Raymon. May GOD bless your family at this hard time. Miss u Hundle.
Ray, I miss you. You were such a great guy. You always made me laugh doing those funny things. I miss talking to you so much. Words cannot express how I feel. I still can't believe this. I miss talking to you so much.
Ray, i have only met u a few times but u are a sweet and intellectual individual. After reading what many wrote, it seems u enjoyed life and lived it. I enjoyed hearing ur FONZ voice and may u rest in peace and my apologies that we hadnt spoken in so long. Take care buddy. R.I.P. from another RAY
Ray,u are often imitated but u will NEVER be duplicated. Your heart and soul are truly one of a kind. You will be greatly missed, forever rest in peace.
ray cant believe ur gone. u were suppose to be the favorite uncle raymon to all are kids. the uncle that all the kids were gonna love. I thought u were always gonna be around. miss u too much. rest in peace brother. see u when i get there.
I never knew Ray Hundle but I stumbled across this website. Can someone please post some information about Ray's death for those of us who did not know or hear about this tragic incident. (Maybe the moderator of this site can provide a link to some news story)? He seems really young and I am really sorry to hear that another young life is lost. But remember that God picks and chooses the best.
I can't believe this i don't know how this msg will ever get to u but if u don't hear me in my constant prayers i don't know when we'll be able to feel each other again and figure our just what the FUCK is going on....man i fukn look at ur site and pics and movies every night can't fukn sleep i miss u so much i;m goin fukn nuts but for everyone else "WE DON"T GIVE A FUCK" thank you for all of your love and support and I;m sure wherever this guy is he is PIMPn cos that what this BIG G in a little body did is PIMP the FUCKING SCENE and now the scene just ain't the same RAY u love me i know it u fudgepacker but i hate u for that jump man I am going to have to learn to live but bro who would've ever known it'd be like this FUCK!!! this msg may be looked cracked out but it's after night after sleepless night trying to get the feeling ur alright and it comes and goes i didn't even want to write here but I THANK EVERYONE THAT HAS SHOWN SO MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR OUR FAMILY IN THIS HARD TIME and cannot explain how much it means to have everyone sharing their SINCERE LOVING PRAYERS for RAYMON HUNDLE our legend RIP BROTHER never forget our last days you spooky guy fukn legend. My partner man for eternity so much love we didn't even know get to me somehow man somehow......Johnny Kang
ray, man i cant even begin to explain the feeling of your heart breaking...i miss you more than words can say i think about you every minute of every day...cried so much i thought i couldnt cry anymore but what do you know? i hear bob marley playin and i just break down...you taught me everything i know, showed me so many things took me so many places everywhere i go theres memories...makes it kinda hard ya know?...you taught me not to sweat the small stuff...now im tryna live life the way you did...like a ROCKSTAR baby...go big or go home right?...fuck i wish i coulda said goodbye but i guess im saying it now...i love you hunny n i hope if i have a gaurdian angel its you...wait for me up there ok? -ss
Ray,I still can't believe that you are gone! We weren't very close but we did have a some funny memories in high school. And I'm going to miss seeing you around in the mall or at a club macing on the girls. You were always nice and nerver a snob and alway made sure to say hi when u'd see me and I respect that. My respects go out to Rays family and all his close friends! You were defintely loved by many. May your soul RIP! You will be missed! Shabana
What can I say,its been only a month, the rest of our lives without you will feel like forever.
We all know your with us and will be with us to the end. Each of us is trying to cope with what happened and accept that we can't here your voice or the latest crazy episode in your life. But we all know one thing, you were one of a kind, for real, no one could ever be compared to you, you represented how life was to lived, to its fullest, you were what we all want to be.
Like Johnny said you are a legend, we could write a top-selling biography about your life, even call it "The Chronic-als of Hundle". Even if the book never gets published you will be always be remembered by all us and our children and their children, never forgotten.
Your love for us was absolutely real and our love for you is and will always be equally as real. I wish you could have had a chance to realize the number of lives you influenced, the number of hearts you touched and the amount of happiness you brought into our lives, so much that you would not have believed it. I know you see it now and are probably laughing about it.
I can't believe your gone. sometimes I feel like your just out partying and that you will pop your head out the window when one of us pull up. Other times, I'll be sitting there doing my work and be like what the fuck, he's gone. then, I'll jump on this site and see what new messages are posted, because it helps to know that I'm only one of hundreds that feel the same way. I sometimes think "This shouldn't have happened, this isn't fair, this isn't the way its supposed to be", then I realize, what I think doesn't matter, God took you now because that was his wish. I don't think that was fair, but I have no choice but to accept it. The one choice I do have is to remember you or move on, and Ray I will always remember.
yo ray man im gonna miss you, i looked up to u, u werealways there for me u always picked up ur phone, if i needed a ride any where u would be there man i love , i cant wait till im up there joining u but for now R.I.P -your cuz
im thinking of what to say about you and what to say to you that you and everybody doesnt alreayd know. there r no words to express how i feel and how u made me feel. the jokes. the drinks.. the memories out at the beach, at your house... and everywhere we went.. i never met anyone like you n i never will b/c there will always be one RAY HUNDLE.. i think of how one day u were here n the nxt you were gone. and i think of how u taught me to never regret anything and to live life to the fullest. i know u did! i sit in a river of emotions that has no begining and no end. its endless like my thoughts, feelings and devotions towards you. from the day wen we first met until the day im up there with you, you will always be in my heart and the hearts of others. my respects, thoughts, and prayers go out to your family and friends. and may god ease their pains and mine with time. the tears will eventually come to a stop, and the grieving will end. but no ones love for you nor will anyone's memories of you dissapear. my thoughts of you are everlasting like your spirit within all our hearts.
Ray- i duno u brotha - but from reading all this im shedding tears... incredible guy - God took u early for a reason- he thought u were too good for this life and wanted to put u where u belong to complete ur life there- in heaven. May God Rest your Soul and put you through easy... just reading these comments is impacting i cant imagine if i had met you... i would have been a different person all together. Much Respect. -Peace Brotha
what can i say about you...your the sweetest guy in the world no matter what went down. when i finally got to know you i was sooo glad i did. you caught my eyes just like that & i was so impressed by the way you swept me off my feet. all i kept saying to you was "damn Ray! your 1 brown guy who i've met who's actually got game!" it could of been the many tattoos all over that made me tell you how you reminded me of some1 from Miami but you were your OWN person & that's what i loved sooo much! & all those times what would you do in return...make me laugh my ass off by doing something absolutely so ridiculous that only we would be psycho enough to laugh at! i remember every time you would call it would take us a while to decide on what to do but in the end we were ALWAYS left w/ the same 2 options. option A: blazing OR option B: me drinking while u in the nude blazing. deep down inside i'd be laughing in my head cuz somehow you would always have an article of clothing still on (i wonder how that always managed to happen!) lol how about that time we wanted to watch a movie & you kept on insisting we watch "something else" & i kept telling you if we watch "something else" it's going to be One Night In Paris. we still never got our hands on that sucker but don't worry, we will watch that 1 day! i remember trying to get you to sing Paris' song 'Screwed' but when the day finally came & you sang 1 verse to me that was honestly some candid camera shit! lol i always told you that 1 day i would get Bob Marley's songs down & i have...so be proud! when i found out that you passed away words couldn't even describe the feeling going on throughout my whole body. all i kept saying to myself was "why him?!" it just couldn't make any sense to me @ all, you were always so full of life & always had so much energy inside. i miss you sooo much there are no words to describe the way i feel towards all this! i think about you every minute of the day...when i wake up, in the middle of the day, b4 i go to bed, & for the rest of my life! i have your picture rite by my bedside so the first & last person i see is you. what's really fucked is how it happened a week before my sisters wedding. i cried sooo much no1 actually knew what i was going through or how i felt. losing some1 sooo special really affects a person in every way possible. when i hear Paris' song it has a weird effect on me now just knowing that you actually tried remembering 1 verse for me & all those Bob Marley joints make me break down & cry. i learned sooo much from you Ray, you taught me alot & for that i'm always going to be greatful. (no regrets!) you would always tell me "don't give a fuck about the small stuff just what counts!" you we're ALWAYS rite! it ain't the little things that really matter when deep down it would always be about the BIG things! no matter what i'm gonna try to follow in those footsteps...live life the way you would want it to be lived...PORNSTAR!!! yeooooow it’s hard to deal w/ the pain of losing you, everywhere i go i force a smile knowing that you wouldn't want me to be sad...getting up, getting dressed, i know if i could do it all over again i would say the few words that i left unspoken just for you. remember the song i dedicated just for you! you said that i could call u whenever i needed some1 to listen to me...that's why i'm here standing by your side cause you'll always come through for me...so many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me...but you took your time & now i'm satisfied that's why i want u all to me! *Bestfriend* this isn't a goodbye...you know i love you & i'll see you up there! luv always, Indeep
I fukn love you man why did u have to go??!! fuck life sucks without you please god take care of our brother I FUKN MISS YOU SO MUCH MAN!! Rest in Peace Raymon I hate life without you man you were my fukn partner in life man and I just don't know what to do without you here. WAHEGURU RAYMON I AM SO SORRY MAN I WISH I WAS THERE FOR U that day I can't believe you just slipped away i don't know if u ever feel these messages I love and miss you with every last bit of my prayers and positive energy why did you have to go man?? My fukn body aches and i can't help but break down when I missu so fukn much I am so sorry man...u loved life and fuckers like me r still alive without you here I am so sorry I lOVE YOU BRO Please be happy wherever you are give us some hope when you can...please god I fukn miss you so much. -Johnny
hey ray...so i know i already left a comment buuut i always have something new to tell you even though youre not here to talk to im sure youre still watchin whats goin on down here :)...so i found youre star last night..know how i know its yours? because there i was listening to bob marley on my front step having a smoke n i look up and theres only one star in the sky, no clouds or nothin, just you, and its right in front of my house...i hope you were hearing my thoughts, i was trying to pull some crazy telepathic shit with hopes that my thoughts got to you...so now every night at least i have something to look forward to, still miss you like crazy sweetie... ss
They say it takes a minute to meet a special person, an hour to appreicate them, But it takes an entire life time to 4get them. We will Never Forget U Ray......
I miss you so much! It's wierd not having you around. I miss seeing you, talking to you, holding you hell everything about you. I thought by now my pain would fade a bit, but It still hurts so much I guess It will never go away. You are a very special person not only to me but to so many others. I never got to know any of the people you knew, but by reading these comments, they all loved you alot hun! and they all still do and always will. I hope in time they will heal, it's not easy going through life after you lose someone so special.
For all of Ray's family and friends I am sorry for all the pain you guys are going through. I knew Ray for about a year and he is the best.
Miss you lots sweetheart! Like alot of others have said god always takes the good ones. You will always be in my heart. Love you babe!!
i never met u , but ve heard a lot about you that how great and friendly u were and a true friend ...wish i met u .. hope u r happy whereever u r and u ll always be in memories ....
Ray I was in love with you the day I met you til the day you left and I'll love you for the rest of my life. My only dream was to be with you forever, but I dunno, for sum reason god took you. I'm trying to move on but I'll never be able to get over this, I dont think anyone can. Life fuken sucks without you in it. Fukk. Maybe I can be with you in my after life and even if I your still pimpen it, I hope to just have you in my life. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. I just love you so much. You were honestly One in a Million.
hey ray, i hope u can see this message, i just wanna say, i miss you alot, you were so cool, its been over 3 months since u left us, i dont think ill ever be as happy again as i was when i was with you, you loved to get high, and u were so adventourous when u did it, you always needed to find the next best place, one better than the last, sometimes i wish you didnt find Lynn Valley, but i know thats where you wanted to be. There will be no one else like you on this earth ever again, you are one of a kind, you were the best. You had the best ideas, you always wanted to do something new and have fun while ur doing it. I miss not having to talk to you, and you telling me what you did that day, you always ended up doing sumthing hilarious, i laughed all the time. Your the best and ill never forget you no matter what, ive never lost a friend before and i never knew it would be this hard, i think about you every night before i sleep, i close my eyes and a picture of you appears, sometimes when im not thinking of anything, you pop into my head, when i look up into the sky i know your there, looking down at us, telling us to have fun, and be crazy. I miss you and love you forever, love you like a older brother, bye ray
i honestly can't believe its been 4 months since u passed away...u we're truely ONE IN A MILLION RAY RAY! i know ur watching over us & wanting every1 to live life to the fullest but deep down its gonna be hard 4 some of us...still missin u like crazy Ray -Indeep
i really miss you i saw u all the time wen we were younger then u got older and did your thing i didnt get 2 c u all the time but if i called ud come through there isnt ne1 else in the family that will b the same.I liked that we started chilling more again but u had 2 go and i understand that but dont like it, i hope i get 2 c u agian wen i get older
Time doesn't move, Years go bye and still we haven't improved… Our hearts can never heal And all we can do is learn to deal.
So young and full of life Had goals, ambitions, charm beyond others… Lived everyday as tho it was your last We remember you as the best thing from our past And we carry all your qualities with us until our last… Rip Ray,
hey bro u fukn asshole ;-) look at this shit....like is fukd who knew u'd go like this man and fukn take everything with you i only wait for u in my dreams man pray my hardest with everything in me U took all my dirtyness with u fukr well i try to keep some alive just for u;-D lol ya u see it... six months of living a fake life without u man we lived it together the harderst every one saw how fukd we were I always got u to give in man and it makes me shake inside when i constantly watch our mempories play shit hehehehh u fukn dirty fukr lol i kno ur laffn with me man ur the sky raymon n i always feel u around anytime ur close i;m cryin like a bitch and i kno u kno it n probably like what the fuck is this guy doing but i can't help it man we were supposed to grow old together bro no ones here im all fukd up gary kang;s in jail again terry's with u somewhere so much love 4 u man no one rockd it like we did and we got fuckd over big time i can't believe u were only meant to b here this long it;s not right something fukd up somewhere either we FUCKED UP!! or something slipped man ur with me i kno but ray seriously u kno life is fuckd i ain't scared of shit partner can't wait 2 see u again u kno how we roll FUKD UP shit i laff n cry like i'm crazy life ain;t real without u man we learned to live different and it became normal lol now without you life is just not life anymore FUCK RAY I KNO U HEAR ME i love you bro JGD I kno you hear it it;s all we got left....u hang on crossroads my brother
RAY, you were a fuckn g. you live ur life like u dint give a fuk n u dint, and thas one of the things i wud like to do because thas the best way to live it. I noe wen i went to ur house i saw ur sex swing n everythin ahah u are a fuckin PIMP. EVery bitch i fuk now i think its u hookin me up wit sum pussy becuz thas the one thing u sed was important in life. AND TILL I DIE I WILL CONTINUE TO FUK THE SHIT OUTTA BITCHES just like u did in ur sex pad ;), aloota ppl are lost with out u dwag u made ppl feel complete n shit never fuckin mad r nethin jus str8 up chillllin n not givin a fuck, i noe ur still around here we jus cant see u , but ur blessin us everyday with ur presence. give me sum kinda sign homie to get this fuckin pain outta my heart RIP RAYMON HUNDLE
A piece of me was lost the day you left and nothing feels complete as it once did... All I can do reminisce and it hurts like hell. I still love you, now and forever.
BRO THESE FUKN STINKY INTERNET CAFES AND ALL THE HINDU GIRLS U INTERVIEWED MAAAAN RAYMON U FUKR LAST TIME IT WAS CALLS TO 0016047718201 AND U MADE ME COME HOME WITH ALL THE SHIT WE'VE DONE U MADE MY LIFE MAN I CAN'T GET OVER IT BRO I DONT KNO WHAT THE FUCK TO DO U KNOW I'VE BEEN LOOKING OUT AND I FELT U LIKE CRAZY THE OTHER DAY U KNO WHERE SO BRO I'M COMING HOME AGAIN BUT HOME AINT HOME WITHOUT U MAN ALL THESE DIPPERS IN INDIA EVEN CAN'T GET OVER IT I MISS U RAY EVERYONE FUKN DOES WHO KNEW BRO THIS IS WHAT IT'D BE I AM SO EMPTY EVERYTHING WE DID I REALIZE NOW WAS JUST TO TELL EACH OTHER HOW WE DID IT LOL AND FUCK I'M GOING CRAZY TRYING TO TALK TO U ALL THE TIME I THINK I FINALLY GOT U TO SEND SOMETHING BACK AND I LOVE YOU FOR IT MAN U FUKN HANG HARD BRO WE;RE ALL COMIN BRO I KNO U MAN U CRACKER WE'RE GONNA B ALL FUCKD UP N U'LL B THE SAME THANX RAY U KNO IT MAN THERE AIN'T KNO ONE LIKE US U BUILT SO MANY OF US N IT DOESNT MATTER I KNOW U REMEMBER "KNO ONE LIKES U GUYS & U DON'T CARE!! WE CANT FIGHT EVERYBODY" U ROCKED IT BRO LIKE NO OTHER EVERYONE FUKN KNOWS IT MAN JUS KEEP COMIN BACK LIKE THAT AND I'M COMIN BRO I'M COMIN ;-)
RAY, you were a fuckn g. you live ur life like u dint give a fuk n u dint, and thas one of the things i wud like to do because thas the best way to live it. I noe wen i went to ur house i saw ur sex swing n everythin ahah u are a fuckin PIMP. EVery bitch i fuk now i think its u hookin me up wit sum pussy becuz thas the one thing u sed was important in life. AND TILL I DIE I WILL CONTINUE TO FUK THE SHIT OUTTA BITCHES just like u did in ur sex pad ;), aloota ppl are lost with out u dwag u made ppl feel complete n shit never fuckin mad r nethin jus str8 up chillllin n not givin a fuck, i noe ur still around here we jus cant see u , but ur blessin us everyday with ur presence. give me sum kinda sign homie to get this fuckin pain outta my heart RIP RAYMON HUNDLE
your'e an idiot why would you post something like this?
vacation time and it aint the same without but we gonna try to make the best of it like u would want us to, u will always be apart of us never forget u and the fucked up shit we did together on our trips. We know ur watching over us thats why we dont give a fuck in brazil
rayyy its all the time you shared with your family and friends thats keep you alive forever much love (k)many good times you and your volcano =p May you rest in Peace . . . .
yes one person can make a big difference in many people's lives. raymon has proven it. count the many who miss him everyday and many more who wish to join him very very soon. raymon always wanted to be a leader. your army awaits, raymon..come lead us.
same alley, same house, the light is on in the same room. everyone laughed, drank, smoked weed. music was loud. people were there at all hours of the night and day. many cars. everyone was happy and having a good time. oh i miss that. i would give anything for those days to return. raymon, i will wait and wait for your return. we need you to return to put things right.
Another day has gone Im still all alone How could this be your not here with me? You never said goodbye, someone tell me why Why did you have to go and leave my world so cold? Your always in my heart babe, it's been a year, I can't stop loving you... Hope you still know that no one compares to you
I keep telling myself that you haven't left and that you are still here with us, and I know you are. I just wish I could see you and talk to you like old times, but i guess I did see you when you came into me dreams, thanks sweetie. I just want to let you know I still think about you all the time, and I still Love you and that will never change.
BRO this is hurting having to write here instead of calling 7718201 and being like u fukn asshole how come you didn't tell anyone its your birthday..and u'd b like what?? no its not..cocksucker never admitted it was your birthday and today if we were on plan where we were going VANCOUVER woulda known which boss ballers BDAY it was today but bro we both know LIFE is FUCKD everyone here is so lost and i pray to god everyday ur not lost raymon everyone loves u man and fukn some of the only times we laugh like we used to is when we talk about U PARTNER ..happy bday the first of many 2 come UR CREW is gonna hold it down 4 u cos thats wut u made us bro everybody knows its RAY HUNDLES crew and we're gonna throw u the baddest playboy baller bday just like the good times at the pillow room;-) i mean bby sry the fijis nammers juniors and the ladies man how the ladies loved to party 4 U trying to keep it real 4 U happy birthday ray forever.... -Johnny
Happy Birthday RAY! I know ur watching over all of us & wanting us all 2 enjoy this day & party HARD! U'll NEVER be forgotten, luv u & miss u. Ur ONE in a MILLION! Luv always, Indeep
Hey babe!! Happy birthday hun, I remember the last time you were here for ur bday I came to see you and you told me it was your birthday.. You told me no one ever knows its your birthday. I always thought that was so funny.It's things like that, all the little things that made your such an amazing person.. Only you Ray, I can honestly say your the only person i've ever loved!
how can raymon just die? 23yrs old and just die? deceased? why? why not one of the other guys. the ones who are real religous? who can just pray to their god and go about life as if nothing happened? they can accept their god's will. yes,that would be more just.
raymon-- i miss you, man and i am waiting for you. why don't you just come back . you belong here. without you there is just a house. a big empty, silent house in an empty silent alley.
raymon- everyone misses you very much. but we can all feel your presence all around us. everone feels a sense of guilt, like we should have been there when you needed help. you were always there when any one of us called upon you. this is a darker, lonier place without you to light it up. no one else really matters now. hopefully i will be near you soon.
as long as you feel his presence, raymon will be near you. he will help you but ask for noting as before. he will smile and say "i'm fine." ask him if he needs anthing, he will say "i'm fine." what then can we do for him? just remember, just remember. please do not forget RAYMON!
tho i have stopped beleiving in you, my god, please look after raymon, i will accept any punishment that you wish to inflict upon me. but please look after raymon. keep him happy. don't criticize him, he is very sensitive. listen to him. he is very wise and caring. give him anything that he wants.
raymon-- there is no energy left here. it is quiet. it is dark. very uncomfortable, all around are strangers. heartbeat is very slow. nothing is moving. what matters now? i do not know. i do not care.
hey whats up bro? how have you been?? man its been way too long since we last talked. i know your up there ripping it up with bob marley. your always in our thoughts and forever in our hearts.
There is not one day that goes by where i do not think of you. Where do u carve it? I will see one day. Thoughts and prayers are always with you. Love you dearly -just wanted to remind you like I usually did, wherever you may be.
hope is a cruel joke that the gods play upon us. dreams are just dreams. why hope and dream about the future? it is just an illusion. all is maya. nothing is real. better to keep one's eyes closed.
your not gonna back not even to say goodbye... remeber the 14 days you wcoudlnt come see me n then you did.. where u preparing me for the lifetime without you... il be strong for you and im trying not to let the memories fade away :)
raymon- i am and will be waiting for you. right here. i will not give up. i will wait for you. i have to wait for you. i have nothing else to look forward to. i am tired and weary but i will not give up. i cannot give up. i will wait.
the pictures, the photos, the memories and the tears come like the summer rains. i feel the warmth and my heart beats faster. only to be broken by the silence of reality.
if, only if. why not if? looking back i can only think if. i cannot look foreward because there is no forward. i can only see backward. raymon, i am crippled now. i got nothing to look foreward to.
yaweh, allah, jesus, krishna, ahura mazda, the great spirit, lao tze, budha, brahma, siva, vishnu, guru nanak.... whichever can give me an answer. i will worship and pray to. up to now all have remained silent. so i cannot worship and pray.
what now. nothing to do now. move on they say. get on with your life. what life. everything i did centered on raymon. everything i planned depended on raymon. raymon's opinion was very important to me. now i am lost and confused. what will happen to me now. i don't know. does anyone care? i don't know.
raymon--where did you go? you left your heart and soul here. don't you need it? come back and take us with you. we need you with us because without you we do not have a heart or a soul. we will wait till you come for us. we have nothing else to look forward to.
yesterday. oh i long for yesterday. when my troubles were far away. now i long for yesterday. tomarrow only brings more emptiness. now there is nothing but yesterday.
does no one hear the cries of an old man? why does he cry in silence? does anyone care? what pains him? why does he not reach out? there is no one. there was one. but he has gone away, far, far away. now there is no one. nothing left but to cry in silence.
it's always been hard to write about you. you fill up my world. where ever you are. all of the memories and all of the days in so many ways. i miss you so.
everyone moves on except those who cannot. we cannot move on because we will not leave raymon behind. we will wait. when raymon comes we will go as family and friends do. together.
a child is the most vital organ of a parent. without this essential part a parent cannot exist. it is a cruel god indeed who takes a child from his parent.
i had a dream. now it is a nightmare. the dream was of hope and happiness and a future. now it is a nightmare of dispair, emptiness and endless sadness. why?
how does a man deal with this kind of tragedy? he cannot shed tears because a man cannot feel pain. he cannot talk to anyone because whatever he says takes away from his manhood. all he can do is embrace silence. silence is the universal language everyone can understand. even the gods. hopefully.
can't help but focus on the pain. everyone goes away in the end. 23yrs of age, not fair. not right. gotta start again. find a way. must wait. must find a way. nothing else to do but wait.
justice delayed is justice denied. who will judge god for his inaction on july 21 2006? what recourse does one have? there has to be universl justice. how can my thoughts on justice be more noble than god? i am just a poor person. god is power. what i could with the power of god. oh what i would do with the power of god had i been a god.
if you are expecting death to come as a friend. prepare to entertain him. if you are expecting death to come as an enemy. prepare to confront him. death is only dangerous when he comes as a stranger.
death, be not proud, and gloat for i am preparing to enter your domain. this time you will meet your equal. you will have to face me one day soon. you cannot avoid this. i come with great anger.
there is a big hole in our hearts and it just gets bigger everyday. what have we done wrong to have this happen to us? it is very difficult to believe in god, now.
trapped in the glorious years. within the memory of disbelief. which seemed so clear. you, my friend, will be forever 23 yrs old. forever in the heart of memories, our tears will flow.
the house is still there, in the alley. it is very quiet, very dark. lifeless. everyone drives by, hoping, wishing. the window will open. raymon will stick his head out and say 'was up'. we stand and stare and listen. the window does not open.
raymon, some days i cani't stop the tears. i wipe them away so no will notice. wiping the tears away brings more tears. i take deep breaths to slow down my heartbeat. i close my eyes hoping to see you. waiting to hear you say what's wrong? why are you crying? i open my eyes and am blinded. where is the sense in all this. i am alone. there is no one here now. but time.
you are always with us, raymon. but we miss hearing your voice. the light is on in your room. it is a warm room because you built it. it is yours and will always be yours. we peer into it and remember. time stands still there. it is all that we have.
all i can do now is just keep staring at pictures. but there just aren't enough pictures, i wish, oh how i wish. there has to be more. there has to be.
raymon- isee your picture and i hear you say -meri yaad rakna- remember me. how can we forget, raymon. your are our heart and soul. we are empty when you are not with us.
bro i miss u so much my life is going and i know u wouldnt want any of us to b losers so gonna win and win big bro but never knew it'd b like this i needed u in my life BIGTIME more than i ever realized we shoulda grown old together bro both always talked about going fast mutherfukn FASTLIFE but not like this nothing helps sometimes!! we all keep u alive big time have RH spirit n can't get enuf talkn about all our times but having u with us when it ROCKS i kno ur there but FUCKKK my prayers r always with u and so many others too every DAY NIGHT whatever keeps u at peace till we recognize each other again u found me once bro find me again please..
raymon-- here i sit, alone. so sad. missing you alot, very tired, so tired. waiting, waiting for such a long time. all is empty and dark. nothing but sadness in and around me. all is at an end. i can feel you around me. what should i do? where do i go? who do i talk to? what do i say? feeling powerless and helpless. i have changed from a rock to moss.
raymon-- we miss more and more as the days pass.our lives are at a standstill as we wait for you to come back to us. our wait will not end until you return to us. everthing is and will always be as it was. we will keep on shedding tears everyday until the forces that are, take pity on us and end our nightmare.
our hearts rest in your hands, raymon.the farther away you go the harder it is for us to breathe. we have been holding our breath for a long now. we do not know how long we can go on like this. we are drying up like the desert. the desert was a fertile land until it deprived of water. we are a desert in progress. soon we will be devoid of life, like the desert.
i ask only one question. why must one family have to bear this overwelming burden? we have only given, never taken. we have never asked for anything except for the wellbeing of each of us. god has sadly disappointed us.
raymon- i will find you. this is my impossible dream. this my quest. i will challenge the gods. i will find you. i will not give up. my determination will not abate. this wrong must be put right. i will do. this my impossible dream. this is my quest.no matter how hopeless. no matter how far. i will continue. i will not give up. i cannot give up.
we are all missing you everyday, raymon. and all wait to be with you again. it's just not the same. there's always a chair at the table. your place will always be here.you will always be a part of us as we will always be a part of you.
i feel you in the morningwhen at first i awake. your thought is with me with each decision i make. what you bestowed in our brief time will last forever.my only wish is that you have found peace and happiness, which you so rightly deserve.
the music is off. the light is gone. the room is cold. we sit in silence and wait. we wait for the light to come back on. the music to come back on. for the warmth to return to the room. until it does we will wait in this cold desolate place until it's warm again.
raymon--today is one of those days,when i feel really down and out of touch.i think of you every dayand wonder what happened.it is not right, it's all wrong.how can i accept something that is so universally wrong.i will ask this same question till there is accountability.
miss you alot raymon. time is not my friend. time is a great weight upon my head. i can support it no more. i have lost my strengh. i feel so weak like i have never felt before.the desire is gone. the drive is gone.just the shell remains.and the wait continues.
raymon- we, all, miss you greatly.words do not come easily, the tears come without effort. this life is no life. it's done. it' over. just the waiting reains.
here i sit staring at pictures, listening to sad music. why? what is the meaning of this? can a man be destroyed only in the inside. there are no scars on my body the damage is severe. there is no cure. no one will ever know.raymon you are greatly missed every day.
a man's tears must be shed in complete silence and in complete darkness.his insides may burn but the outside bust remain cold. because he is a man.like the eggshell must be strong to protect the inside which is very fragile.
351 Comments:
Ray Hundle
My thoughts are with you,your family and all your many friends at this time. I still can't believe it, it seems so sureal. I have many good memories of growing up together in highschool especially of how little and cute you were!!And I could never forget your great sense of humour,you always knew how to make people laugh!!
Take care
Until we meet again!!
Stephanie Newcombe
Ray ill miss you ... We always had good times and ill never forget them, especially my birthday it will be the one i never forget. Your in a better place and i hope to see you there .... I love you and you'll always be in my heart babe !
hey ray...i still cant believe my eyes u r gone...juz at da otha day we chilled at da pool..dat was fun..mac'in up on each otha;)...good tymes man..well now ur in a better place...rip ray..
May your soul Rest in Peace Ray. (F)
When I die...
When I die
when my coffin
is being taken out
you must never think
i am missing this world
don't shed any tears
don't lament or
feel sorry
i'm not falling
into a monster's abyss
when you see
my corpse is being carried
don't cry for my leaving
i'm not leaving
i'm arriving at eternal love
when you leave me
in the grave
don't say goodbye
remember a grave is
only a curtain
for the paradise behind
you'll only see me
descending into a grave
now watch me rise
how can there be an end
when the sun sets or
the moon goes down
it looks like the end
it seems like a sunset
but in reality it is a dawn
when the grave locks you up
that is when your soul is freed
have you ever seen
a seed fallen to earth
not rise with a new life
why should you doubt the rise
of a seed named human
have you ever seen
a bucket lowered into a well
coming back empty
why lament for a soul
when it can come back
like Joseph from the well
when for the last time
you close your mouth
your words and soul
will belong to the world of
no place no time
although I did not have the pleasure of meeting you..I heard you were a great guy...god be with your soul..
Rohan Lawson
Toronto
never forget u. its not gonna be the same as when we used to chill. sit for hours and just laugh. u always made the plans to do something fun like beach and bbq's. u will never be forgotten. ur life changed many, u gave people hope and meaning, gave people a place in life. thats why u will always be in everybodies hearts. i cant wait to join u again. rip my brother
R.I.P, Raymond Hundle- you were a righteous man...God bless your soul
ray,u will never be forgoten always in my heart..until we meet..
ray, u were the best, always in my heart... till we meet again
Ray, I still can't believe that you are gone. We grew up together from the kindergarten days, and I imagined you always being around. I know that you are in a better place, and you are enjoying every moment of it. You definitely knew how to live up your life. You brought so much happiness to everyone you have met. You will be missed dearly and you will continue to live on in my heart. See you when I make up there. God rest your beautiful soul.
Dal xoxoxo
Ray,u always went out of your way to say hi,thats just the type of human being your were.u will always be remembered.
Let's not focus on how you left, but how you lived while you were here....the many things in life that you can say that you've done, that only most of us could only wish
Ray...my heart goes out to ur family and friends..we all miss and love you dearly...you are an amazing person and always such a happy soul...you always took my lectures deep and understood my crazy ways, never judging on others and always trying to better everything; not just in your life but everyones around you...the life u have lived is full of love and hapiness which is a great example for all of us to follow... just have 'Fun with a Purpose' From Nelson School and Secret Park to Friday nights on MSN and all the crazy places you wandered...all i have in my heart is love for you !!!
Sukhi
Ray,
I know we hadn't talked in years and I'm sorry about the way things ended between us, but I wanted you to know what an impact you had on my life. I will never forget all the fun we had together, from hanging out at the beach to our late night conversations on the phone. You were a very special person and a true friend. Always there when I needed you and I will carry our memories in my heart forever.
May God be with your friends and family.
Love you forever,
Fania
I know Ray,when he came into my life 2 years ago. He helped me heal a broken heart just talking about it with me for months, and helped me deal with it was one of the few things he was there for.I'm suprised he even put up with it and still wanted to get to know me.. Sometimes we'd stay up all night until morning just talking about shit. things we did that day,Life in general and what we both thought of it. As i got to know him, sometimes I would think how can there be someone like him and wondered why I couldn't get enough of talkign to him, We did meet a couple times. but didn't chill or anything. We were making plans to do something .. He didn't want to at first cuz, there were reasons only we know about. Towards the end of his life he called me out a couple times. But I always said no... cuz,then i wasn't feeling to good about life. Now that he's gone .. its like reliving a broken heart and losing out on someone special u were just anxious to meet but because i was stubborn i never got the chance.. There was probably a reason why it never happend, God only knows why. One of the things we talked about is if one of us were to go what kind of legacy would u want to leave. He didn't know... But I believe Ray's legacy to me, was Just a Pure heart,that touched everyone in his path. just being yourself, everyone should have,its so easy to get caught up in life,its easy to forget life is for living. Ray was special to me. His life has made me realize alot. I know everyones heart is aching that he's gone, Life is one big journey we are all on. We'll all meet eachother again oneday. so live this life until that day to meet eachother again on the other side.
Miss U Ray! -Cheryl (k)
" what you doing playing tendo" R.I.P RAY (shed so many tears)-2pac
We will miss you buddy. You were the same guy since we met in Burnaby south in 1995 up untill you past away and that is a great person ,always with a smile on your face and full of life. I didnt get to see you a lot in the past few years but every time we meet at different places around the city we greated eachother just like we use to throught out the years in different highschools. Somehow we ended up in Burnaby Central together after South , I wonder why ? hehehe I will miss you man , you were an awesome guy and I'am proud to have known you for these 11 years. Rest in peace hommie , we love you , we miss you.
Urosh C.
I have your picture they gave at the funeral taped on my desk. I can’t help but to look at it every 5 mins and shake my head. I think I’m still in shock that you’re gone. Why did this happen? I guess I’ll never know. Where’s my sex therapist at? Where’s my msn buddy I could talk to all nite? LITERALLY! You were such a great person. So you and Rob liked to share huh? LOL I couldn’t help but laugh. As I was driving to your funeral I had a few things in mind I wanted to say to you. I didn’t even have the guts to go up and see you. I was afraid of breaking down. I know you didn’t like it when I would cry. I wasn’t going to go because I didn’t know how I would take it. But I knew I had to, to get a sense of closure. Thank you for always making me smile. Thank you for always telling me that I was a beautiful girl. You always made me feel good about myself. And you were so blunt!! Loved it! I always wondered why you never got upset about anything. You just shrugged things off! I guess somehow you knew you would live a short life. I love you hunnie. Till the day we meet again.
Ray omg! I can't believe this happened to you! I'm so sorry, I wish I you could come back and bless us all! You will never be forgotten hun. I call your phone thinking I might hear your voice once again, but I know that will never happen. I love you dearly and wish I could have said goodbye! take care up there Ray.
Ray, I cant seem to get over the time I first met you with Johnny. You 2 are priceless, thank you for blessing me with your presence. My condolences go out to all your family and friends. We'll miss you Ray, RIP.
Ray, I never had the chance to tell you how extrodinary you are. How genuine, charming, kind-hearted, daring and admirable you are. You were always living life to the fullest, going out of your way to make people feel good, enjoying life every minute you had and always trying new things. Thank you for always going out of your way to take me out and taking care of me while I was in Vancouver. I regret not being able to see you again-- but then I thought about it, and realized that I was pretty lucky to even have met you, spent time with you and had you in my life. There's so many people that did not get the chance to meet you. And that is when I realized that I was so lucky to have had the memories that I did with you. At this moment I dedicate all my prayers to your family. I don't know if there is life after death, or if there is a heaven. But I do hope, that some how we will meet again. I will always carry your memories in my heart forever. Thank you ray for everything and for showing me how to live life to the fullest.
love angel.
R.I.P
Raymon Hundle,
As we grew up together in highschool you were always the most cutest little guy. We used to laught together, run down to 7-11 & grab slurpees together. Remeber skipping class & going to DONS? I cant believe you are gone. I pray to GOD u find your place GOD wants you to be. We will never forget you Raymon. May GOD bless your family at this hard time.
Miss u Hundle.
Ray, I miss you. You were such a great guy. You always made me laugh doing those funny things. I miss talking to you so much. Words cannot express how I feel. I still can't believe this. I miss talking to you so much.
RIP
Ray, i have only met u a few times but u are a sweet and intellectual individual. After reading what many wrote, it seems u enjoyed life and lived it. I enjoyed hearing ur FONZ voice and may u rest in peace and my apologies that we hadnt spoken in so long. Take care buddy. R.I.P. from another RAY
Ray,u are often imitated but u will NEVER be duplicated. Your heart and soul are truly one of a kind. You will be greatly missed, forever rest in peace.
ray cant believe ur gone. u were suppose to be the favorite uncle raymon to all are kids. the uncle that all the kids were gonna love.
I thought u were always gonna be around. miss u too much. rest in peace brother. see u when i get there.
I never knew Ray Hundle but I stumbled across this website. Can someone please post some information about Ray's death for those of us who did not know or hear about this tragic incident. (Maybe the moderator of this site can provide a link to some news story)? He seems really young and I am really sorry to hear that another young life is lost. But remember that God picks and chooses the best.
Ray,
I can't believe this i don't know how this msg will ever get to u but if u don't hear me in my constant prayers i don't know when we'll be able to feel each other again and figure our just what the FUCK is going on....man i fukn look at ur site and pics and movies every night can't fukn sleep i miss u so much i;m goin fukn nuts but for everyone else "WE DON"T GIVE A FUCK" thank you for all of your love and support and I;m sure wherever this guy is he is PIMPn cos that what this BIG G in a little body did is PIMP the FUCKING SCENE and now the scene just ain't the same RAY u love me i know it u fudgepacker but i hate u for that jump man I am going to have to learn to live but bro who would've ever known it'd be like this FUCK!!! this msg may be looked cracked out but it's after night after sleepless night trying to get the feeling ur alright and it comes and goes i didn't even want to write here but I THANK EVERYONE THAT HAS SHOWN SO MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR OUR FAMILY IN THIS HARD TIME and cannot explain how much it means to have everyone sharing their SINCERE LOVING PRAYERS for RAYMON HUNDLE our legend RIP BROTHER never forget our last days you spooky guy fukn legend. My partner man for eternity so much love we didn't even know get to me somehow man somehow......Johnny Kang
Ray,
Only the good die young.Wish i got to say goodbye.I know god is taking care of u up there.And we all know your running the show. Miss you tons!
Nik
ray, man i cant even begin to explain the feeling of your heart breaking...i miss you more than words can say i think about you every minute of every day...cried so much i thought i couldnt cry anymore but what do you know? i hear bob marley playin and i just break down...you taught me everything i know, showed me so many things took me so many places everywhere i go theres memories...makes it kinda hard ya know?...you taught me not to sweat the small stuff...now im tryna live life the way you did...like a ROCKSTAR baby...go big or go home right?...fuck i wish i coulda said goodbye but i guess im saying it now...i love you hunny n i hope if i have a gaurdian angel its you...wait for me up there ok?
-ss
Ray,I still can't believe that you are gone! We weren't very close but we did have a some funny memories in high school. And I'm going to miss seeing you around in the mall or at a club macing on the girls. You were always nice and nerver a snob and alway made sure to say hi when u'd see me and I respect that. My respects go out to Rays family and all his close friends! You were defintely loved by many. May your soul RIP! You will be missed!
Shabana
Ray,
What can I say,its been only a month, the rest of our lives without you will feel like forever.
We all know your with us and will be with us to the end. Each of us is trying to cope with what happened and accept that we can't here your voice or the latest crazy episode in your life. But we all know one thing, you were one of a kind, for real, no one could ever be compared to you, you represented how life was to lived, to its fullest, you were what we all want to be.
Like Johnny said you are a legend, we could write a top-selling biography about your life, even call it "The Chronic-als of Hundle". Even if the book never gets published you will be always be remembered by all us and our children and their children, never forgotten.
Your love for us was absolutely real and our love for you is and will always be equally as real. I wish you could have had a chance to realize the number of lives you influenced, the number of hearts you touched and the amount of happiness you brought into our lives, so much that you would not have believed it. I know you see it now and are probably laughing about it.
I can't believe your gone. sometimes I feel like your just out partying and that you will pop your head out the window when one of us pull up. Other times, I'll be sitting there doing my work and be like what the fuck, he's gone. then, I'll jump on this site and see what new messages are posted, because it helps to know that I'm only one of hundreds that feel the same way. I sometimes think "This shouldn't have happened, this isn't fair, this isn't the way its supposed to be", then I realize, what I think doesn't matter, God took you now because that was his wish. I don't think that was fair, but I have no choice but to accept it. The one choice I do have is to remember you or move on, and Ray I will always remember.
till we meet again,
yo ray man im gonna miss you, i looked up to u, u werealways there for me u always picked up ur phone, if i needed a ride any where u would be there man i love , i cant wait till im up there joining u but for now R.I.P
-your cuz
Hi Ray,
Happy 1day late Birthday. I miss you and I think about you everyday. Hope you're up there celebrating your day.
im thinking of what to say about you and what to say to you that you and everybody doesnt alreayd know. there r no words to express how i feel and how u made me feel. the jokes. the drinks.. the memories out at the beach, at your house... and everywhere we went.. i never met anyone like you n i never will b/c there will always be one RAY HUNDLE.. i think of how one day u were here n the nxt you were gone. and i think of how u taught me to never regret anything and to live life to the fullest. i know u did! i sit in a river of emotions that has no begining and no end. its endless like my thoughts, feelings and devotions towards you. from the day wen we first met until the day im up there with you, you will always be in my heart and the hearts of others. my respects, thoughts, and prayers go out to your family and friends. and may god ease their pains and mine with time. the tears will eventually come to a stop, and the grieving will end. but no ones love for you nor will anyone's memories of you dissapear. my thoughts of you are everlasting like your spirit within all our hearts.
happy last birthday "pervert"
RIP RAY (F)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
DOES ANYONE KNOW THE NAME OF THE SONG THEY PLAYED AT HIS FUNERAL DURING THE SLIDE SHOW?
I'm making a CD. thanks guys.
Dust in the wind
dust in the wind
t.i wat u know bout that
2pac broken wings
bob marley jamin
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABE
MISS YOU LOTZ
Ray- i duno u brotha - but from reading all this im shedding tears... incredible guy - God took u early for a reason- he thought u were too good for this life and wanted to put u where u belong to complete ur life there- in heaven. May God Rest your Soul and put you through easy... just reading these comments is impacting i cant imagine if i had met you... i would have been a different person all together. Much Respect.
-Peace Brotha
Does anybody know where the slideshow of Ray went at the bottom of this page? Is there anyways it can be put back up? It was awsome..
Ray,
what can i say about you...your the sweetest guy in the world no matter what went down. when i finally got to know you i was sooo glad i did. you caught my eyes just like that & i was so impressed by the way you swept me off my feet. all i kept saying to you was "damn Ray! your 1 brown guy who i've met who's actually got game!" it could of been the many tattoos all over that made me tell you how you reminded me of some1 from Miami but you were your OWN person & that's what i loved sooo much! & all those times what would you do in return...make me laugh my ass off by doing something absolutely so ridiculous that only we would be psycho enough to laugh at! i remember every time you would call it would take us a while to decide on what to do but in the end we were ALWAYS left w/ the same 2 options. option A: blazing OR option B: me drinking while u in the nude blazing. deep down inside i'd be laughing in my head cuz somehow you would always have an article of clothing still on (i wonder how that always managed to happen!) lol how about that time we wanted to watch a movie & you kept on insisting we watch "something else" & i kept telling you if we watch "something else" it's going to be One Night In Paris. we still never got our hands on that sucker but don't worry, we will watch that 1 day! i remember trying to get you to sing Paris' song 'Screwed' but when the day finally came & you sang 1 verse to me that was honestly some candid camera shit! lol i always told you that 1 day i would get Bob Marley's songs down & i have...so be proud! when i found out that you passed away words couldn't even describe the feeling going on throughout my whole body. all i kept saying to myself was "why him?!" it just couldn't make any sense to me @ all, you were always so full of life & always had so much energy inside. i miss you sooo much there are no words to describe the way i feel towards all this! i think about you every minute of the day...when i wake up, in the middle of the day, b4 i go to bed, & for the rest of my life! i have your picture rite by my bedside so the first & last person i see is you. what's really fucked is how it happened a week before my sisters wedding. i cried sooo much no1 actually knew what i was going through or how i felt. losing some1 sooo special really affects a person in every way possible. when i hear Paris' song it has a weird effect on me now just knowing that you actually tried remembering 1 verse for me & all those Bob Marley joints make me break down & cry. i learned sooo much from you Ray, you taught me alot & for that i'm always going to be greatful. (no regrets!) you would always tell me "don't give a fuck about the small stuff just what counts!" you we're ALWAYS rite! it ain't the little things that really matter when deep down it would always be about the BIG things! no matter what i'm gonna try to follow in those footsteps...live life the way you would want it to be lived...PORNSTAR!!! yeooooow it’s hard to deal w/ the pain of losing you, everywhere i go i force a smile knowing that you wouldn't want me to be sad...getting up, getting dressed, i know if i could do it all over again i would say the few words that i left unspoken just for you. remember the song i dedicated just for you!
you said that i could call u whenever i needed some1 to listen to me...that's why i'm here standing by your side cause you'll always come through for me...so many others tried to be where you are but they just wanted to do me...but you took your time & now i'm satisfied that's why i want u all to me! *Bestfriend*
this isn't a goodbye...you know i love you & i'll see you up there!
luv always,
Indeep
Thanks guys for the songs :)
R.I.P RAY HUNDLE.
I wish things could have turned out differently!
J.C
I fukn love you man why did u have to go??!! fuck life sucks without you please god take care of our brother I FUKN MISS YOU SO MUCH MAN!! Rest in Peace Raymon I hate life without you man you were my fukn partner in life man and I just don't know what to do without you here. WAHEGURU RAYMON I AM SO SORRY MAN I WISH I WAS THERE FOR U that day I can't believe you just slipped away i don't know if u ever feel these messages I love and miss you with every last bit of my prayers and positive energy why did you have to go man?? My fukn body aches and i can't help but break down when I missu so fukn much I am so sorry man...u loved life and fuckers like me r still alive without you here I am so sorry I lOVE YOU BRO Please be happy wherever you are give us some hope when you can...please god I fukn miss you so much.
-Johnny
all the pain we going through we gotta stay strong cause i know your up there and you dont wanna see us sheding tears.
hey ray...so i know i already left a comment buuut i always have something new to tell you even though youre not here to talk to im sure youre still watchin whats goin on down here :)...so i found youre star last night..know how i know its yours? because there i was listening to bob marley on my front step having a smoke n i look up and theres only one star in the sky, no clouds or nothin, just you, and its right in front of my house...i hope you were hearing my thoughts, i was trying to pull some crazy telepathic shit with hopes that my thoughts got to you...so now every night at least i have something to look forward to, still miss you like crazy sweetie...
ss
They say it takes a minute to meet a special person, an hour to appreicate them, But it takes an entire life time to 4get them. We will Never Forget U Ray......
Ash
We are still thinking about you Ray
Hey Ray Baby!
I miss you so much! It's wierd not having you around. I miss seeing you, talking to you, holding you hell everything about you. I thought by now my pain would fade a bit, but It still hurts so much I guess It will never go away. You are a very special person not only to me but to so many others. I never got to know any of the people you knew, but by reading these comments, they all loved you alot hun! and they all still do and always will. I hope in time they will heal, it's not easy going through life after you lose someone so special.
For all of Ray's family and friends I am sorry for all the pain you guys are going through. I knew Ray for about a year and he is the best.
Miss you lots sweetheart! Like alot of others have said god always takes the good ones. You will always be in my heart. Love you babe!!
i never met u , but ve heard a lot about you that how great and friendly u were and a true friend ...wish i met u .. hope u r happy whereever u r and u ll always be in memories ....
priyanka
Ray I was in love with you the day I met you til the day you left and I'll love you for the rest of my life. My only dream was to be with you forever, but I dunno, for sum reason god took you. I'm trying to move on but I'll never be able to get over this, I dont think anyone can. Life fuken sucks without you in it. Fukk. Maybe I can be with you in my after life and even if I your still pimpen it, I hope to just have you in my life. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. I just love you so much. You were honestly One in a Million.
Always and forever yours,
Jess
hey ray, i hope u can see this message, i just wanna say, i miss you alot, you were so cool, its been over 3 months since u left us, i dont think ill ever be as happy again as i was when i was with you, you loved to get high, and u were so adventourous when u did it, you always needed to find the next best place, one better than the last, sometimes i wish you didnt find Lynn Valley, but i know thats where you wanted to be. There will be no one else like you on this earth ever again, you are one of a kind, you were the best. You had the best ideas, you always wanted to do something new and have fun while ur doing it. I miss not having to talk to you, and you telling me what you did that day, you always ended up doing sumthing hilarious, i laughed all the time. Your the best and ill never forget you no matter what, ive never lost a friend before and i never knew it would be this hard, i think about you every night before i sleep, i close my eyes and a picture of you appears, sometimes when im not thinking of anything, you pop into my head, when i look up into the sky i know your there, looking down at us, telling us to have fun, and be crazy. I miss you and love you forever, love you like a older brother, bye ray
What was Ray's brother's name?
someone please tell raymon that his dad needs to talk to him.tell him to come home, please.house is too quiet.
You where one in million man.You just loved getting high and watching other get high with you and never charge a cent to no one.RIP BRO
i honestly can't believe its been 4 months since u passed away...u we're truely ONE IN A MILLION RAY RAY! i know ur watching over us & wanting every1 to live life to the fullest but deep down its gonna be hard 4 some of us...still missin u like crazy Ray
-Indeep
I Dropped A Tear In The Ocean When They Find It Ill Stop Loving You..
Always and forever yours,
Jess
i really miss you i saw u all the time wen we were younger then u got older and did your thing i didnt get 2 c u all the time but if i called ud come through there isnt ne1 else in the family that will b the same.I liked that we started chilling more again but u had 2 go and i understand that but dont like it, i hope i get 2 c u agian wen i get older
K.S.
Still thinking about you........
Merry Christmas Ray still thinking sbout you.......life just isnt the same with out you.
We still havent forgot bout u yet bro, we just tryin to keep our heads up.
wish u we're here 4 the holidays Ray. love u & miss u!
-indeep
never forget u always in our hearts
Time doesn't move,
Years go bye and still we haven't improved…
Our hearts can never heal
And all we can do is learn to deal.
So young and full of life
Had goals, ambitions, charm beyond others…
Lived everyday as tho it was your last
We remember you as the best thing from our past
And we carry all your qualities with us until our last…
Rip Ray,
Missing you is an understatement...
Always and forever yours,
Jess
jam with me baby!
Still thinking of you and missin you Ray
Judy <3
hey bro u fukn asshole ;-) look at this shit....like is fukd who knew u'd go like this man and fukn take everything with you i only wait for u in my dreams man pray my hardest with everything in me U took all my dirtyness with u fukr well i try to keep some alive just for u;-D lol ya u see it... six months of living a fake life without u man we lived it together the harderst every one saw how fukd we were I always got u to give in man and it makes me shake inside when i constantly watch our mempories play shit hehehehh u fukn dirty fukr lol i kno ur laffn with me man ur the sky raymon n i always feel u around anytime ur close i;m cryin like a bitch and i kno u kno it n probably like what the fuck is this guy doing but i can't help it man we were supposed to grow old together bro no ones here im all fukd up gary kang;s in jail again terry's with u somewhere so much love 4 u man no one rockd it like we did and we got fuckd over big time i can't believe u were only meant to b here this long it;s not right something fukd up somewhere either we FUCKED UP!! or something slipped man ur with me i kno but ray seriously u kno life is fuckd i ain't scared of shit partner can't wait 2 see u again u kno how we roll FUKD UP shit i laff n cry like i'm crazy life ain;t real without u man we learned to live different and it became normal lol now without you life is just not life anymore FUCK RAY I KNO U HEAR ME i love you bro JGD I kno you hear it it;s all we got left....u hang on crossroads my brother
We never forget a bro like u god blessed us to let u come in our lives always in our hearts
Ray,
when u asked me how many times u crossed my mind, i said 1 because u never left. happy valentine's day. luv u & miss u lots!
-indeep
RAY, you were a fuckn g. you live ur life like u dint give a fuk n u dint, and thas one of the things i wud like to do because thas the best way to live it. I noe wen i went to ur house i saw ur sex swing n everythin ahah u are a fuckin PIMP. EVery bitch i fuk now i think its u hookin me up wit sum pussy becuz thas the one thing u sed was important in life. AND TILL I DIE I WILL CONTINUE TO FUK THE SHIT OUTTA BITCHES just like u did in ur sex pad ;), aloota ppl are lost with out u dwag u made ppl feel complete n shit never fuckin mad r nethin jus str8 up chillllin n not givin a fuck, i noe ur still around here we jus cant see u , but ur blessin us everyday with ur presence. give me sum kinda sign homie to get this fuckin pain outta my heart
RIP RAYMON HUNDLE
miss u buddy
A piece of me was lost the day you left and nothing feels complete as it once did... All I can do reminisce and it hurts like hell. I still love you, now and forever.
J
pain is a good thing. it means you remember a good person. thank you. please keep on thinking of raymon. do not let the pain prevent you.
still thinkin bout you. raymon. still waitin for you to come and get me outta here, cause there aint nothin here for me.
BRO THESE FUKN STINKY INTERNET CAFES AND ALL THE HINDU GIRLS U INTERVIEWED MAAAAN RAYMON U FUKR LAST TIME IT WAS CALLS TO 0016047718201 AND U MADE ME COME HOME WITH ALL THE SHIT WE'VE DONE U MADE MY LIFE MAN I CAN'T GET OVER IT BRO I DONT KNO WHAT THE FUCK TO DO U KNOW I'VE BEEN LOOKING OUT AND I FELT U LIKE CRAZY THE OTHER DAY U KNO WHERE SO BRO I'M COMING HOME AGAIN BUT HOME AINT HOME WITHOUT U MAN ALL THESE DIPPERS IN INDIA EVEN CAN'T GET OVER IT I MISS U RAY EVERYONE FUKN DOES WHO KNEW BRO THIS IS WHAT IT'D BE I AM SO EMPTY EVERYTHING WE DID I REALIZE NOW WAS JUST TO TELL EACH OTHER HOW WE DID IT LOL AND FUCK I'M GOING CRAZY TRYING TO TALK TO U ALL THE TIME I THINK I FINALLY GOT U TO SEND SOMETHING BACK AND I LOVE YOU FOR IT MAN U FUKN HANG HARD BRO WE;RE ALL COMIN BRO I KNO U MAN U CRACKER WE'RE GONNA B ALL FUCKD UP N U'LL B THE SAME THANX RAY U KNO IT MAN THERE AIN'T KNO ONE LIKE US U BUILT SO MANY OF US N IT DOESNT MATTER I KNOW U REMEMBER "KNO ONE LIKES U GUYS & U DON'T CARE!! WE CANT FIGHT EVERYBODY" U ROCKED IT BRO LIKE NO OTHER EVERYONE FUKN KNOWS IT MAN JUS KEEP COMIN BACK LIKE THAT AND I'M COMIN BRO I'M COMIN ;-)
Im sorry johnny- for a great loss but he is not gone.. he def is with you.
RAY, you were a fuckn g. you live ur life like u dint give a fuk n u dint, and thas one of the things i wud like to do because thas the best way to live it. I noe wen i went to ur house i saw ur sex swing n everythin ahah u are a fuckin PIMP. EVery bitch i fuk now i think its u hookin me up wit sum pussy becuz thas the one thing u sed was important in life. AND TILL I DIE I WILL CONTINUE TO FUK THE SHIT OUTTA BITCHES just like u did in ur sex pad ;), aloota ppl are lost with out u dwag u made ppl feel complete n shit never fuckin mad r nethin jus str8 up chillllin n not givin a fuck, i noe ur still around here we jus cant see u , but ur blessin us everyday with ur presence. give me sum kinda sign homie to get this fuckin pain outta my heart
RIP RAYMON HUNDLE
your'e an idiot why would you post something like this?
vacation time and it aint the same without but we gonna try to make the best of it like u would want us to, u will always be apart of us never forget u and the fucked up shit we did together on our trips. We know ur watching over us thats why we dont give a fuck in brazil
Happy Vasakhi Ray! I love you.
your always with me,
Jess
if you know me, then you understand. if you do not understand me then i do not wish to know you.
raymon--- i am still here. still waiting for you and will continue to do so. you are greatly missed and can never be replaced.
the emptiness is not going away. i will not give up my emptiness. this injustice cannot be forgotten. raymon deserved better much much better.
raymon-- there are so many people looking for you. how long will the search last?
still keep thinking of you, raymon. i will come when you call.
how does a just man end up in an unjust world?
why is still the word. it just isn't right.
there was a time. there was a place. i wish i was there.
raymon-- i'm doing my best but its getting harder by the day.
rayyy its all the time you
shared with your family and friends
thats keep you alive forever
much love (k)many good times
you and your volcano =p
May you rest in Peace . . . .
raymon--- you have a big family and they are getting bigger. stay with them for they can grow only if you are with them.
yes one person can make a big difference in many people's lives. raymon has proven it. count the many who miss him everyday and many more who wish to join him very very soon. raymon always wanted to be a leader. your army awaits, raymon..come lead us.
everyone is gone. the place is quiet, empty. just a sad old man sits alone waiting for his son to come home.
same alley, same house, the light is on in the same room. everyone laughed, drank, smoked weed. music was loud. people were there at all hours of the night and day. many cars. everyone was happy and having a good time. oh i miss that. i would give anything for those days to return. raymon, i will wait and wait for your return. we need you to return to put things right.
Our family chain is no longer linked and nothing feels right, but as god calls us home one by one the chain will link once again.
Another day has gone
Im still all alone
How could this be
your not here with me?
You never said goodbye, someone tell me why
Why did you have to go and leave my world so cold?
Your always in my heart babe, it's been a year, I can't stop loving you... Hope you still know that no one compares to you
Love you now and forever ray,
Jess
I keep telling myself that you haven't left and that you are still here with us, and I know you are. I just wish I could see you and talk to you like old times, but i guess I did see you when you came into me dreams, thanks sweetie. I just want to let you know I still think about you all the time, and I still Love you and that will never change.
BRO this is hurting having to write here instead of calling 7718201 and being like u fukn asshole how come you didn't tell anyone its your birthday..and u'd b like what?? no its not..cocksucker never admitted it was your birthday and today if we were on plan where we were going VANCOUVER woulda known which boss ballers BDAY it was today but bro we both know LIFE is FUCKD everyone here is so lost and i pray to god everyday ur not lost raymon everyone loves u man and fukn some of the only times we laugh like we used to is when we talk about U PARTNER ..happy bday the first of many 2 come UR CREW is gonna hold it down 4 u cos thats wut u made us bro everybody knows its RAY HUNDLES crew and we're gonna throw u the baddest playboy baller bday just like the good times at the pillow room;-) i mean bby sry the fijis nammers juniors and the ladies man how the ladies loved to party 4 U trying to keep it real 4 U happy birthday ray forever.... -Johnny
Happy Birthday RAY! I know ur watching over all of us & wanting us all 2 enjoy this day & party HARD! U'll NEVER be forgotten, luv u & miss u. Ur ONE in a MILLION!
Luv always, Indeep
Hey babe!! Happy birthday hun, I remember the last time you were here for ur bday I came to see you and you told me it was your birthday.. You told me no one ever knows its your birthday. I always thought that was so funny.It's things like that, all the little things that made your such an amazing person.. Only you Ray, I can honestly say your the only person i've ever loved!
Always and forever yours babe!
Happy Birthday! Love you(L)(K)
happy 25th birthday, raymon. what can i do for you? what can i buy for you? you are me 24/7 and always will be so.
how can raymon just die? 23yrs old and just die? deceased? why? why not one of the other guys. the ones who are real religous? who can just pray to their god and go about life as if nothing happened? they can accept their god's will. yes,that would be more just.
raymon-- i miss you, man and i am waiting for you. why don't you just come back . you belong here. without you there is just a house. a big empty, silent house in an empty silent alley.
raymon- everyone misses you very much. but we can all feel your presence all around us. everone feels a sense of guilt, like we should have been there when you needed help. you were always there when any one of us called upon you. this is a darker, lonier place without you to light it up. no one else really matters now. hopefully i will be near you soon.
everthing will be as you left it. nothing will change.
the time will come, when it is time.
as long as you feel his presence, raymon will be near you. he will help you but ask for noting as before. he will smile and say "i'm fine." ask him if he needs anthing, he will say "i'm fine." what then can we do for him? just remember, just remember. please do not forget RAYMON!
if i am lost, please find me.if you are lost, i will find you. if we are lost, we will find a way.
tho i have stopped beleiving in you, my god, please look after raymon, i will accept any punishment that you wish to inflict upon me. but please look after raymon. keep him happy. don't criticize him, he is very sensitive. listen to him. he is very wise and caring. give him anything that he wants.
how do you say good-bye to your 23 yr old son?
raymon-- there is no energy left here. it is quiet. it is dark. very uncomfortable, all around are strangers. heartbeat is very slow. nothing is moving. what matters now? i do not know. i do not care.
raymon -your house sits empty, your car is parked. everyone waits for you to fill your house and start your car.
we all miss you very much, raymon. our hearts are not whole.
raymon, are you really......gone? i don't believe it. i will wait for you, no matter what.
hey whats up bro? how have you been?? man its been way too long since we last talked. i know your up there ripping it up with bob marley. your always in our thoughts and forever in our hearts.
raymon--wish you were here now.
23 yrs old, just think about it 23 yrs. what more can be said. not right, it's just not right.
raymon is in my thoughts every day.he is my thoughts.
There is not one day that goes by where i do not think of you. Where do u carve it? I will see one day. Thoughts and prayers are always with you. Love you dearly -just wanted to remind you like I usually did, wherever you may be.
hope is a cruel joke that the gods play upon us. dreams are just dreams. why hope and dream about the future? it is just an illusion. all is maya. nothing is real. better to keep one's eyes closed.
your not gonna back not even to say goodbye... remeber the 14 days you wcoudlnt come see me n then you did.. where u preparing me for the lifetime without you... il be strong for you and im trying not to let the memories fade away :)
raymon- i am and will be waiting for you. right here. i will not give up. i will wait for you. i have to wait for you. i have nothing else to look forward to. i am tired and weary but i will not give up. i cannot give up. i will wait.
when an old man dies it does not matter. but the loss of a young healthy son is all that matters.
what have i become, raymon. what have i become.
the pictures, the photos, the memories and the tears come like the summer rains. i feel the warmth and my heart beats faster. only to be broken by the silence of reality.
some wounds are so deep. they cannot be healed.
we must bear the pain because we have no choice.
if, only if. why not if? looking back i can only think if. i cannot look foreward because there is no forward. i can only see backward. raymon, i am crippled now. i got nothing to look foreward to.
yaweh, allah, jesus, krishna, ahura mazda, the great spirit, lao tze, budha, brahma, siva, vishnu, guru nanak.... whichever can give me an answer. i will worship and pray to. up to now all have remained silent. so i cannot worship and pray.
what now. nothing to do now. move on they say. get on with your life. what life. everything i did centered on raymon. everything i planned depended on raymon. raymon's opinion was very important to me. now i am lost and confused. what will happen to me now. i don't know. does anyone care? i don't know.
are you really gone raymon? where have you gone? why have you gone? did you want to go? did you not want to be with us no more? why
what to do? what to do? i quit. i don't know. why? why?
raymon-- i miss you very much. if only i could hear your voice and see you walk through the door right now.
raymon--where did you go? you left your heart and soul here. don't you need it? come back and take us with you. we need you with us because without you we do not have a heart or a soul. we will wait till you come for us. we have nothing else to look forward to.
yesterday. oh i long for yesterday. when my troubles were far away. now i long for yesterday. tomarrow only brings more emptiness. now there is nothing but yesterday.
to grow old without a heart is a curse. to not feel anthing is a curse. to see and not look is a curse. what is it that i should think?
does no one hear the cries of an old man? why does he cry in silence? does anyone care? what pains him? why does he not reach out? there is no one. there was one. but he has gone away, far, far away. now there is no one. nothing left but to cry in silence.
if i could start again. if only i could start again. i would do anything. anything. you could have it all. everthing i own.
raymon--this just aint workin for me. i gotta find an answer. what's going on?
and they, since they were not the deceased turned to their affairs.
it's always been hard to write about you. you fill up my world. where ever you are. all of the memories and all of the days in so many ways. i miss you so.
everyone moves on except those who cannot. we cannot move on because we will not leave raymon behind. we will wait. when raymon comes we will go as family and friends do. together.
raymon- what has happened? i don't know. nothing but confusion, sadness, waiting. must wait. don't know what else to do but wait.
a child is the most vital organ of a parent. without this essential part a parent cannot exist. it is a cruel god indeed who takes a child from his parent.
what has been lost between us? time and the seasons. my long shadow leaning towards yours. never touching.
from dust i rise and out of nothing now i awake.
i had a dream. now it is a nightmare. the dream was of hope and happiness and a future. now it is a nightmare of dispair, emptiness and endless sadness. why?
here i sit. i will go no further. my road is at an end. let the world trample upon me. i will feel nothing. i cannot be hurt any more.
how does a man deal with this kind of tragedy? he cannot shed tears because a man cannot feel pain. he cannot talk to anyone because whatever he says takes away from his manhood. all he can do is embrace silence. silence is the universal language everyone can understand. even the gods. hopefully.
can't help but focus on the pain. everyone goes away in the end. 23yrs of age, not fair. not right.
gotta start again. find a way. must wait. must find a way. nothing else to do but wait.
justice delayed is justice denied. who will judge god for his inaction on july 21 2006? what recourse does one have? there has to be universl justice. how can my thoughts on justice be more noble than god? i am just a poor person. god is power. what i could with the power of god. oh what i would do with the power of god had i been a god.
only the pain is real. the hurt is good. tears are memories. darkness is my friend. the light is blinding.
time is my mortal enemy. why drag me through it. stop the clock. i do not wish to play anymore. let me go home.
Thinking of you!
if you are expecting death to come as a friend. prepare to entertain him. if you are expecting death to come as an enemy. prepare to confront him. death is only dangerous when he comes as a stranger.
death, be not proud, and gloat for i am preparing to enter your domain. this time you will meet your equal. you will have to face me one day soon. you cannot avoid this. i come with great anger.
a woman can make a man's life either heaven or hell. she has this power say the wisemen. even the gods are powerless.
light griefs do speak, while sorrow's tongue is bound.
the deeper the sorrow the less tongue it hath.
we understand death for the first time when he puts his hand upon the one whom we love.
there is a big hole in our hearts and it just gets bigger everyday. what have we done wrong to have this happen to us? it is very difficult to believe in god, now.
look at the pictures, stare at the picture. imagine, just imagine. reality is just imagination.
think about you like you were never gone... but can you hear meeeee?
the strongest of men are felled by the loss of a child.
my heart has been ripped from my chest.
that was yesterday. and yesterday's gone.
our circle is broken.
the question of why? will forever echo throughout the annals of time.
the world is alot less inviting now.
close your eyes and turn off all senses. now enter a world where everything is possible. welcome to my world.
they say if you can dream it. you can live it. i will find out.
trapped in the glorious years. within the memory of disbelief. which seemed so clear. you, my friend, will be forever 23 yrs old. forever in the heart of memories, our tears will flow.
what could have been? what should have been? why wasn't it? these questions will go with me to eternity. and there will be accountability.
the house is still there, in the alley. it is very quiet, very dark. lifeless. everyone drives by, hoping, wishing. the window will open. raymon will stick his head out and say 'was up'. we stand and stare and listen. the window does not open.
raymon, some days i cani't stop the tears. i wipe them away so no will notice. wiping the tears away brings more tears. i take deep breaths to slow down my heartbeat. i close my eyes hoping to see you. waiting to hear you say what's wrong? why are you crying? i open my eyes and am blinded. where is the sense in all this. i am alone. there is no one here now. but time.
you are always with us, raymon. but we miss hearing your voice. the light is on in your room. it is a warm room because you built it. it is yours and will always be yours. we peer into it and remember. time stands still there. it is all that we have.
all i can do now is just keep staring at pictures. but there just aren't enough pictures, i wish, oh how i wish. there has to be more. there has to be.
raymon- isee your picture and i hear you say -meri yaad rakna- remember me. how can we forget, raymon. your are our heart and soul. we are empty when you are not with us.
i feel you in the morning, when i first awake. i feel you at night when i retire to sleep. your thought is with me, with each decision i make.
bro i miss u so much my life is going and i know u wouldnt want any of us to b losers so gonna win and win big bro but never knew it'd b like this i needed u in my life BIGTIME more than i ever realized we shoulda grown old together bro both always talked about going fast mutherfukn FASTLIFE but not like this nothing helps sometimes!! we all keep u alive big time have RH spirit n can't get enuf talkn about all our times but having u with us when it ROCKS i kno ur there but FUCKKK my prayers r always with u and so many others too every DAY NIGHT whatever keeps u at peace till we recognize each other again u found me once bro find me again please..
whole bunch of folks are waiting for your return, raymon. i'm just one in a crowd.
memories bring smiles. reality brings only tears heartbreak.
raymon-- here i sit, alone. so sad. missing you alot, very tired, so tired. waiting, waiting for such a long time. all is empty and dark. nothing but sadness in and around me. all is at an end. i can feel you around me. what should i do? where do i go? who do i talk to? what do i say? feeling powerless and helpless. i have changed from a rock to moss.
raymon-- we miss more and more as the days pass.our lives are at a standstill as we wait for you to come back to us. our wait will not end until you return to us. everthing is and will always be as it was. we will keep on shedding tears everyday until the forces that are, take pity on us and end our nightmare.
our hearts rest in your hands, raymon.the farther away you go the harder it is for us to breathe. we have been holding our breath for a long now. we do not know how long we can go on like this. we are drying up like the desert. the desert was a fertile land until it deprived of water. we are a desert in progress. soon we will be devoid of life, like the desert.
i ask only one question. why must one family have to bear this overwelming burden? we have only given, never taken. we have never asked for anything except for the wellbeing of each of us. god has sadly disappointed us.
raymon- i will find you. this is my impossible dream. this my quest. i will challenge the gods. i will find you. i will not give up. my determination will not abate. this wrong must be put right. i will do. this my impossible dream. this is my quest.no matter how hopeless. no matter how far. i will continue. i will not give up. i cannot give up.
we are all missing you everyday, raymon. and all wait to be with you again. it's just not the same. there's always a chair at the table. your place will always be here.you will always be a part of us as we will always be a part of you.
i feel you in the morningwhen at first i awake. your thought is with me with each decision i make. what you bestowed in our brief time will last forever.my only wish is that you have found peace and happiness, which you so rightly deserve.
the music is off. the light is gone. the room is cold. we sit in silence and wait. we wait for the light to come back on. the music to come back on. for the warmth to return to the room. until it does we will wait in this cold desolate place until it's warm again.
somethings just should not happen.it's not fair.
thinking about you everyday, raymon. got nothing else on my mind.just waiting for my clock to expire.
raymon--today is one of those days,when i feel really down and out of touch.i think of you every dayand wonder what happened.it is not right, it's all wrong.how can i accept something that is so universally wrong.i will ask this same question till there is accountability.
rubha- itna batta muhje-kia mila tujhe
miss you alot raymon. time is not my friend. time is a great weight upon my head. i can support it no more. i have lost my strengh. i feel so weak like i have never felt before.the desire is gone. the drive is gone.just the shell remains.and the wait continues.
socha nahi tha, taqdeer mujhe yahan lay i ghee. rubha, itna butta de, kia mila tuje.
raymon- we, all, miss you greatly.words do not come easily, the tears come without effort. this life is no life. it's done. it' over. just the waiting reains.
raymon--missing hearing your voice right now. just staring at your picture, waiting for you to say something. anything.
here i sit staring at pictures, listening to sad music. why? what is the meaning of this? can a man be destroyed only in the inside. there are no scars on my body the damage is severe. there is no cure. no one will ever know.raymon you are greatly missed every day.
a man's tears must be shed in complete silence and in complete darkness.his insides may burn but the outside bust remain cold. because he is a man.like the eggshell must be strong to protect the inside which is very fragile.
my god. my god, why have you foresaken me? who can i count on now?
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